More at Ease
I walked with Aisyah Mardhiah this morning. Having someone beside me changed the way my mind worked. When I walk alone, I usually listen to a podcast. I tell myself...
Five Kilograms, Slowly
I lost five kilograms in two and a half months. I feel grateful. It is only a number, but I can feel what sits behind it. The small choices. The...
After Raya Leave
It’s the first day back at the office after the Raya leave. The vibe feels the same, though I notice it more today. I’m not busy, not exactly. There is...
The Brown Bag
I have a new brown handbag. It came from money my husband gave me on top of what he usually does. Extra, he said. For compensation of my feelings. What...
After It Passed
I felt very sad. I felt that.That happened.That has passed. Being questioned can hurt. Being told you are wrong can hurt. Sometimes it stays longer than it should. Sometimes it...
The Morning Without Photos
It’s the first day of school in Malaysia. In the family WhatsApp group, my siblings sent photos of their children before leaving the house. Shoes newly white. Backs straight. Faces...
The Things I Pick Up
I didn’t manage to do what I planned to do at home last night.But at least something happened. The map of the vacuum cleaner is almost complete now. It moved...
Before the Interview
I took my laptop, my Kinbor weekly planner, a Hobonichi dupe with paper that isn’t too smooth, which I like.A 500 ml coffee tumbler that feels like 380. The coffee...
The Vacuum in the Living Room
I tried the robot vacuum cleaner for the second time last night. This time, it felt less like experimenting and more like knowing what I was doing. I now know...
2024 Reflections
Gratitude has been close to me this year. It shows up quietly, often before I know what to do with it. I find myself returning to the same ayah again...