Life

2 months without socials

Since my last post, there have been some updates worth sharing.

I’m feeling much better these days, Alhamdulillah. Remember those backaches and shoulder pains? Well, I’ve now made exercising a daily habit, dedicating 30 minutes to 1 hour every single day, and it has made a world of difference. My husband surprised me with an Apple Watch for the New Year, and let me tell you, it’s been a game-changer in keeping me on track with my fitness goals.

I believe many recent changes in my life have been possible since I made a conscious decision to step back from social media since mid-December. One of the main reasons was that I couldn’t handle the heartbreaking Palestine stories anymore; they were taking a toll on my mental health. I’ve since deleted all social and news apps from my phone. It’s been tough but necessary for my well-being. I feel guilty for not staying informed about my brothers and sisters and for not raising awareness about the occupation and war. This unexplainable guilt and sorrow linger in my daily life and in my prayers.

However, being away from social media has given me the space to focus on what truly matters to me. I’ve found renewed motivation to strengthen my faith and prepare myself for what lies ahead. It may sound cliché, but I’m committed to training myself to be a stronger and better Muslim, ready to protect my faith, my family, and humanity. This has become my driving force to improve in all aspects of my life.

I’ve been reading and writing more, practicing more Sunnah regularly, and have enrolled in an Islamic study certificate class and a Tadabbur support group. Additionally, thanks to my mother-in-law who paid for the app, I spend more time each day learning the Quran in a fun and interactive way through ThinkQuran. The app costs hundreds, but it’s truly exceptional.

At times, it feels like I’m juggling too many things at once, but in the midst of all these activities, I’m grateful for the opportunity to always be learning. Please pray for my steadfastness (Doakan saya istiqamah).

With my priorities in focus, the trivialities of my once-existing problems—office politics and toxic people—seem insignificant. I find myself more at peace, not easily agitated by small issues. I know my husband enjoys this change because he doesn’t have to listen to my rants as much these days.

Knowing that I’m doing my best brings me a sense of contentment, even though I’m aware that life is fragile and unpredictable.

In the end, I’m grateful for the opportunities to grow and improve, and I’m determined to make the most of every moment I have. Here’s to living with purpose and giving our best, every single day.